I don't want to die. Not now. It's not that I'm afraid of death, it's just that there are many things left to do at the age of 16...
Well, but in case I had to die tonight... There are three things I'm sure I would do.
First I would call you (no, I'm not talking to you, not to any reader, it's just for someone who probably will never read this), I'd tell you that I just had a few hours, and that I wanted to spend some with you. I'm sure you'd agree, and so we'd play that game you want me to play with you, and finally had hours of crazy sex.
Then I'd call all my friends, all the people I know, all the people I love... I'd drink and sing in the street, as loud as possible. I'd laugh until cry.
Finally, very late at night, knowing that my end was really near, I'd hug and kiss every member of my family, without telling them I was going to die. I don't want them to suffer, of that I'm sure.
And then, absolutely exhausted, I'd go to bed and try to sleep. Dying while asleep, I think it's the best way.
That's what I'd like to do if I had to die tonight.
Anyway, someday, with no need to be almost death, I'll do all these. Then I'll be able to write another chapter of "If I die tonight" with new projects.